“You are the one you’ve been waiting for”
“You are the one you’ve been waiting for… feel like I’ve herd this one thrown around a few new age circles, whether it was simply thought by someone that wanted to make themselves feel better about being alone or to emphasize to not look outside ourselves for saving, I feel the real message behind it has been lost in the current climate of “I’m Independent”, and yes you most certainly can be, and yes you most certainly should be on some regard, but in this independence we have left a key feature in the dark. One might say the most important part.
Some where in the waves of old personal growth and “New Age Spirituality”, the message of why you are the one seems to have gotten lost. See this message is much deeper than, you don’t need a partner to be happy or you are the one that will save you, i’m some way it is, but as I said it is so much deeper than that. As you scarier the globe trying to be your own love or find a way to heal, you miss the point of the message entirely.
You are the one your younger self has been waiting for, that scared little soul that had no power to make a difference in their life has been waiting for the day you will take hold of the reigns. See its not about just one thing, being YOUR own lover or savior, its about being theirs!
You are the one they’ve been waiting for to protect them, you are the one they’ve been waiting for to make them feel safe, you are the one they’ve been waiting for to nourish them, to love them, to choose them… All the while you stand there in the mirror acting all independent repeating the words “You are the one you’ve been waiting for”, using it as some affirmation, waiting for the happiness and self love to magically set in, not connecting to the real medicine of the story.
Remember that little version of you in your darkest moment, yeah that place you don’t want to look, well they’re still sit there; and you remember that time you decided to go pay that healer thousands of dollars to finally heal, well they are still sitting there, now wondering why you didn’t just spend the money on yourself, buy a good book, have a bath and redecorate your room like you wanted to; and you remember that time you actually decided that you are not your past and discarded all that you were to become the new you, Yep, you guessed it, they are still sitting there, now not only confused but abandoned. All the while you still repeating the mantra “I’m the one I’ve been waiting for”.
So you actually break down one day, as things don’t seem to be improving, you finally break down and shout to the sky, “I can’t do this anymore, i’m done, nothings working and I don’t know why.” But then you hear this voice, faded and spotty “but your the one I’ve been waiting for,” its a tiny voice with not much life, a little voice that your not even sure you heard quite right, so you sit and you ponder, you actually take the space to clear your mind in wonder…
Through this blank space, a mind still, but anticipating, you begin to see, a little child, cold and shivering. This little child sits with dirt upon their knees, scraps and bruises, ragged clothes and you don’t know what to think. They sit there with a small cup presented to you, like Oliver Twist as if they are waiting for food. You pause for a moment with a tear in your eye as you begin to realize… that is you, it is your younger self and it saddens you to see, that the time past doesn’t look like its treated them so well, I swear I came out OK even though childhood wasn’t so swell. So you ask, “Why do you look like you’ve been walking through hell?”
They simply reply, “please will you fill my cup, your the one I’ve been waiting for, I’ve been waiting your whole life, that’s why I look so ragged and torn”. “With what?” You reply, “I have nothing to give, I’ve tried everything and i’m failing to know how to even live.” “With love.” They simply say, “no grand big gesture needed, just love”, the little one pleaded. But you’ve spent so long being the one you’ve been waiting for you feel like your running on empty. “I’m sorry but I tried to be independent, I tried to love myself and all my dreams were suppose to be manifested, but it has don’t nothing but leave me feeling worthless and my will to live suspended.” You reply.
“But I love you, you haven’t been listening, you run around town hoping this new persona is glistening.” “You left me here in the dark, lonely and cold as you tried to grow up without me and it’s leaving you weary and old.” “I’ve been taking the punches when you come home without the change you were hoping, I would beg you to stay home and have a bath, we needed a good soaking.”
“So i’m now asking you please to see now that you can hear me, now that you are listening”… “I just need you to fill my cup as I have nothing left to give, you felt so cold and alone as that where I have been.” “Just fill my cup so I can help you to see through my eyes of curiosity.”
“You didn’t need the healers, gurus or retreats, I needed you to stay home and pamper me.” “Throw away the subscriptions, don’t go to the retreat and stop talking to that coach on zoom, they might all mean well but its talking me away from you.” “You know deep inside is a place you will see, there is all the knowing you could ever want and it comes through loving me.”
So the next time you feel alone, lost or disconnected, remember there is a little one you have forgotten about that is waiting for you to see, the one you have been waiting for is inside the. We nourish and nurture, practice good self care, we run and we play, we even take ourselves on dates, not because you have to be independent, not because you have to be alone to find “the one you’ve been waiting for”, but because this is what you always wanted, to have a safe place, to have a protector, to have someone that loves you so unconditionally that everything else doesn’t seem to matter, you have been waiting for you to grow up and be the one to provide you with everything you needed. When you realize this you start making yourself and your own inner happiness more of a priority in the right way. No magic, no drugs, plant medicine or guru can give you the thing you need the most, The One You’ve Been Waiting For, inside you.
Grab a picture of your younger self, tell them your sorry but most of all “I love You”.
Trust me, it’s all they’ve been waiting for and there forgiveness is already yours as…. they unconditionally Love you!
Acceptance is key
Love will come
Happiness is already within you
Love, Cassandra.